It is 2 am ... what are you doing?

I've been contemplating my return to blogging.  I have so much to write about, I don't know where I should start ... or should I just forget the last 6 months and start the new year fresh?  I have a need to purge the last 6 months from my brain.  I think if I could get it all recorded, I would feel much better about the chaos that has been my life lately.  I really hate this feeling.

So, here I sit ... it's now 2:42am ... and I can't decide where to start writing.

I've been reading blogs daily and commenting occasionally but I can't seem to start back to the habit of blogging.  I've been giving serious thought to quitting ... there have been several of my blog friends who have done just that.  One not only quit, but she took down her blog entirely and has vanished from the blog world.  Others say they are just taking a break.

But mostly the bloggers who are quitting are doing so because of the time it takes away from their families ... if I went back over my blog roll I think the total number would be 7 who have quit.

I started reading blogs back in 2008.  A friend had told me about a community of moms online who were supporting each other and that there was a group of women with twins.  After some investigation I found blogs.

I can't tell you what a relief it was to find other mothers of multiples who were having the same issues that I was ... I wasn't crazy ... it was a freaking assload of work that no normal human could do.  

My new Texas neighbors couldn't seem to understand why I didn't just jump right in to the moms groups and attend all the play dates ... ALL of them had ONE small child and their other was in preschool in the morning ... I had TWO 1 year olds and a 2 year old ... my day was filled with diapering 3 kids, making meals, and doing laundry ... I was still dealing the lingering effects of PPD ... I couldn't imagine how I could squeeze in a play date.

The final straw came one day when my neighbor told me how much work her (one) newborn was ... I asked her how she was dealing with her 2 year old and she told me that she enrolled her in preschool ... 3 days a week for 7 hours a day !!!  She is a stay at home mom ... she is not working outside the home.  I still can't figure out why she was unable to deal with 2 kids.

But it was that final straw that had me checking out blogs ... I needed a reality check from other moms who were like me ... and I found many !!! 

My friendships with all the fantastic bloggers who I've followed is something I've decided I want to continue ... and to do that I need to participate.

I'll never be the prolific writer that some are ... I don't want to write a book.  But I would dearly love to have a written history of all the craziness that we moms experience.  I'm going to love reading back on all the things we did as a family once the kids are grown. 

The kids are growing so quickly I don't want to miss time with them by blogging ... but I do want to have this written history ... and I do want to do something for me that I know with certainty I will enjoy reading years from now.

After 10 years of marriage our first child was born ... 15 months later came the twins.  Our lives went from 0-60 mph in a heartbeat.  One year my oldest will start driving ... then the next year the twins.  One year my oldest will graduate ... and the next year the twins ...

And, our lives will go from 60-0 ... I'm hoping it will not be that abruptly but I'm fearing it will be ... hopefully we will be so old by then it will be welcomed ... but I doubt it ... my kids are 5, 4, & 4 and I'm already anticipating an empty nest ...yikes.

Any whooo ... I'm back to blogging.  My goal is to do one post per week. 

I will end this by saying ... Thanks again for all the support. 

We are in our new home that we are currently calling "The Money Pitt"  ... or on a bad day "The Arm Pitt" .  Y'all may be interested to know that I'm still a moron ... it took me about a month to get the fact that I'm living amongst the women from the TV show "The Real Housewives of Orange County".  We, of course, live "outside the gates" of Coto De Caza ... but they leak out of the gates and we stumble upon the beautiful people shopping at Vons in their limos.

If I had balls, I'd whip out my phone, take some pics, and post them here.  I was itching to do that the other day in Starbucks ... but I love Starbucks and I wanted to be able to return another day. 

I can't decide if I'm a slob who thinks it's fine to run to the grocery store in my paint splattered hair and face, ripped jeans, and no makeup or if "they" are ridiculous for going in their heels, face paint, coiffed hair, and limos. 

Again ... if I had balls ... I'd ask their houseboy to put down the groceries and snap a photo of us side by side ... ya' know ... in the interest of blog fodder.

Okay ... I'm done ...  y'all ... like totally awesome dude (in case you don't get it ... that's a mix of ex-Texan and Californian) :)) 

So ... yippee for me ... I'm still a blogger.