I Can't Sleep

It's 3 am and I'm at my computer. I woke up ... startled by something ... I lay in bed listening intently ... my kids still have monitors in their rooms and I don't see that ending anytime soon. My husband is laboring to breathe around the remnants of a cold ... he is snuffling, snorting, and breathing so loudly that I can't determine if someone needs me. Like most mom's .. I can't go back to sleep until I check on everyone, so off I go.

In my house you can't just go upstairs to quietly check on kids ... we have two dogs. Both need to pee ... I need to pee (note to self: stop drinking large cup of hot tea before bed). I do my business, shut off alarm system, take out dogs, reactivate alarm, start my trek upstairs, climb over baby gate (in place because new puppy thinks upstairs is his personal indoor toilet), finally get to first kids room ... he is sleeping soundly ... but I have to stop and look for a moment ... he is so cute cuddling his gorilla and his Pooh. Finally, off to the girls' room (they decided about a month ago to sleep in the same room) ... and here is the source of the noise ... youngest daughter has fallen out of bed and is sound asleep on the floor ... luckily she is sleeping on a mattress on the floor because this is her sisters room. I put her back in bed and I discover that her older sister is about to fall out of her bed. I put her back in place under her blanket.

Now ... it's 1:45am ... I've been awake for about 20 minutes and done about 20 minutes of walking, lifting ... thinking. I lay back down in my bed ... I'm wide awake ... husband is still being noisy ... and now my mind is racing.

There is just so much work to be done and I'm thinking about it all.

But what I really need besides sleep is some alone time. So, here I am blogging at 3 am.

I'm having coffee and listening to the baby monitors ... I can hear them breathing ... I love my kids so much. I can hear my poor husband breathing from down the hall ... I love him, too.

I hope I get a nap today.